A bit sad. A bit happy. A bit crazy.

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That's totally how I feel right now. 

If you haven't noticed from some of my recent posts-I have felt a bit off lately.

Like really, really off. 

I have been sad and confused and frustrated and downright horrible feeling.

So-I took a pregnancy test. 

That had to be the explanation to all of this madness.

Part of me wanted to see two pink lines-because then I would know why I have been feeling this way, AND because the thought of baby # 3 actually makes me happy.

The other part of me is terrified because how on earth am I to care for three babies? I struggle as it is with two, and money wise? Oh man, I can't even imagine.

Well-only one pink line.

I am a lot more sad then I thought I would be.

My eyes hurt from trying to hold tears back.

The hubs is pretty thankful. He wants to "plan" the pregnancy in order for it not to be such a shock.

Doesn't help.

Now I just feel crazy. I have no idea why I feel all out of wack.

I have no idea when I will get to feeling better.

God has to help me.

Or I am checking myself into the loony bin.